My dad has been encouraging me to take on a diary to write down my testimonies. Since I don't have a habit of writing but a practise of typing, I looked to opening a blog as a diary. Here goes.
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Tuesday / 22nd July 2014
Only after the day I was supposed to end my internship did I realise that "Okayyyyy, so now what do I do?" Firstly, I'm not one who has my whole life planned out and never good at keeping track of my life. So, of course I didn't track when I was ending and only realised after which is "too late dear Joywe."
Back track to a few hours before this happened, I decided to get on Youtube and search for some Carl Lentz preaching and finally heard his sermon at the Hillsong Conference 2014. I was excited. Here's a few things I caught:
- We don't have to chase the right situation/identity but chase the shepherd
- Even though as Christians we experience shaky situations but we know we have a solid saviour.
- God has your back.
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Wednesday / 23rd July 2014
As I woke up, I didn't feel happy. I guess it's my situation that was bugging me. As I left for work, I told my dad to pray for favor and wisdom for me then I prayed in tongues all the way to the MRT station because I knew that the spirit would intercede for me when my feelings can't be formulated to words.
Before I board my train, I would always get on the daily devotional (NCC App). I then, plugged in to Oceans (Hillsong) on repeat. What follows was beyond me.
Jesus is never early, never late but ALWAYS ON TIME. There and then, He is telling me "Do not worry about your life". That's not the end. I got comfy in my seat and logged on to Facebook.
He tells me again, "praise me, for I am forever good".
And again."praise me, for my love is in you and will remain forever. Forever I am good".
AND AGAIN. "Work as though you are working for me and not for yourself or your bosses because I will reward you." I thought that was the end because Jesus, you have told me 4(!) times - NOT TO WORRY! But noooooo. He doesn't stop there and He leaves the best for last.
"your situation is not going to defeat you but it's going to PROMOTE you. It's not going to hinder you, but HELP you." *breathes deeply* My gosh, my God is a crazy CRAZY good God. He not only tells me once but 5 times!!!!!!!
There and then, I felt such peace. Un-explainable peace and such lightness in my heart and mind. It was a crystal clear message -
"Joywe, do not worry about your life and your situation. Instead, I want you to praise me, keep your eyes on me. Look away from your problem and I will show you the way. Through your journey in life and your situation, I will promote you, I will grow you and I will put you in the right situation."
As I was on the way to work, getting super comfy in my seat, the train had to stop at Ang Mo Kio because of a track fault. All around, I felt and see that everyone was frustrated and had the "not this again" face. But, I didn't feel that way - I felt joy instead. Funny huh. It was because I got to enjoy and spend time with God, praising Him by listening to Oceans. I praised Him all the way to work.
I felt so restful throughout the whole day at work. When it was time for me to speak to my boss about my situation, everything I thought could happen, didn't. All that happened was the complete opposite. I got to end my internship earlier, my boss apologised to me for an oversight, I got praised for my work, my boss shared with me her experiences/knowledge/wisdom, I got an offer to work for the company again, she promised me to get in touch with a CG in church (my boss is from NCC!). All that came out of the talk were blessings, praises and all good stuff.
Really, the whole "situation" just turned into a testimony of how good God is and how much he loves me.
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Whoever you are who is reading this, He loves you SO much. This testimony is my walk with God and serves to only glorify him. There is nothing in this world He cannot do so trust in Him because He has got your back! Chase not the right situations but the shepherd because we have a solid saviour!
