Hi, so it's been a while. After what seems like a long time, this crazy thing happened to me on Friday. Here goes...
After cluster cg at The Star, a group of us were hungry so we ventured Star and all the shops were close. We decided to go to Mcdonalds at the Shell building opposite. We took the route where it led towards NTU(i think?), it was bright enough for us to see each other's faces but not too far ahead.
I was on my phone and then I decided to look up. When I did, this girl walked past us. I got a look of her face and noticed she was looking rather distressed and sad. I also heard her sniffling so I assumed she was crying. I told my friend that she was crying. I think it was about only a minute later, I felt it.
"What did I feel?" It was this inexplicable/unexplainable force that was pulling me. It wasn't physical but deep in my heart, I just HAD to go and talk to her. I've never felt something like this. Maybe some people who read this might be afraid like "what force is she talking about?". Don't worry, because what happens after that is gonna be amazing.
Without telling my friends, I turned to walk back to her. My heart was pounding because I've never felt such an urgency to talk to a stranger. I stood right beside her and this was the conversation that follows (from what I can recall):
Me: "Hi. Are you okay?'
Girl: " No, it's okay." wants to walk away.
Me: takes out tissue pack "here, have this."
Girl: " thank you." wants to walk away again.
M: " so are you heading to the star?"
G: "no, its okay." wants to walk away
M: " are you heading home?"
G: " no, its okay." wants to walk away
M: " what's your name?"
G: " no its okay." wants to walk away
M: "my name is Joywe" reaches out to shake hand
G: hesitates to say her name but did anyway " K____"
M: " nice to meet you, so just reach home safe okay?"
G: " yeah, thank you"
Throughout the conversation, I was physically talking but I knew my mind was blank. I didn't know what to ask her. It was definitely the holy spirit that was leading me to speak to her. After walking away, me and my friends just prayed for her at the traffic light.
Throughout dinner at Macs and the train ride home, I kept thinking about what had happened. Even when I was in bed. The whole scenario kept playing in my head. She didn't want to talk about it but I kept pulling her in. I thought of the things I could've said to her or what I could've done. But my dad and brother reminded me that the whole scenario was perfect.
"How come I didn't say the things I could've said or did the things I could've done?"
I believe that it was all planned by God. Every thing I was led to do like shaking her hand or even passing that tissue packet. I must have passed on something to her - and not like a bad thing but it would probably be the anointing of God or the spirit of shalom peace/love and comfort to her aching heart. Just like how Marilyn Hickey mentioned in her sermon about this lady who asked her pastor to pray over a hankerchief she can pass to her husband who was going to jail. The husband profusely rejected the hankerchief but when she placed in his hand, immediately he fell to the floor because it was the spirit of God that took over him, the guards and his cell mates. What proceeded was how this man got saved and now has a church.
While I was on the train back, I just had a picture. A picture of how when we are at our lowest, God will be there to comfort us. This girl probably wanted to cry her heart out and thought why do I have to go through this etc but God sent someone, me, someone who is just like her, to go and reach out to her and love her. I came across this verse Matthew 6:8 (ERV) "...Your Father knows what you need before you ask him".
I just want to tell anyone who ever comes across this post, that Your Heavenly Father KNOWS what you NEED BEFORE you ask him. That girl needed comforting, so God used me and prompted my spirit to reach out to her. When I passed her the tissue, it was a full pack and untouched. I went to eat a buffet before that and would've have needed LOTS of tissues but I didn't use mine. This can't be coincidental, it was purposeful.
It was an amazing feeling to have been used by God to bless someone and in return to be blessed with revelation knowledge and an encouragement to keep feeding on the Word. I would gladly surrender everything to be used by God again this way! :D
Prior to all these that happened, I decided to start reading the bible before bed. I'm not saying that because I had read, then I was blessed. NO. It was because I am so blessed first that it developed a craving for more of God, of the Word. I wanted to be intimate with Him.
I believe that someday, this precious person I came across, would come to get to know that it was God that came to her that night and love her when she didn't feel loved. To everyone and anyone out there, Jesus loves you.
Be blessed.
